12:45 p.m.

Posted on January 9, 2003 by ksmiley



This is the first time I have taken the time to write in my journal all day. I had a doctor’s appointment at 10 a.m. thiis morning. I did npt have anytime to even turn on my machine this morning to check my e-mail. I know the minute I get home from my counseling appointment this afternoon, I am going my pajamas on and look at all my e-mails, etc… At this timem just sitting here waiting for my appointment, wanting to get on my computer to look at my e-mail sounds like something I am gokng yes and no. LOL Anyway, my day so far has been very good. My morning appointment went smoothly and comfortably. But the idea of having two appointments on the same day does seem awkward but I know that people have appointments back to back all the time. I know that other people do it, so can I. I am not used to it yet but it is something I can get accustomed to it sooner or later. My appointment with my counselor should take place in a few minutes.

More later…

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Good Night

Posted on January 8, 2003 by ksmiley

It is time to say

Good Night!

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Posted on January 8, 2003 by ksmiley

<At this time I just wanted to say

Good morning!

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Posted on January 7, 2003 by ksmiley



Boy or boy…Emilee put up a big fight with the vet here today! She had one BUG fight that she is mad at me. she is mad at me! I would really like to hold her right now but she won’t let me near her right now. She is one mad cat right now. Att least she let me pet her with my left foot since she is underneath the computer desk and is at my feet. When she had enough, she did nip me to say I had enough but it did not hurt. She just put her teeth on my foot. At least she is a good, healthy cat at the age of 12 1/2, going to be 13 on June 2. 2003.

I have been off and on here, back and forth here – never going to get one entry in, LOL More later…

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I’m Back Again, LOL / The End of My Day

Posted on January 6, 2003 by ksmiley



I had promised I would be back after my 7th Heaven program along with three of my favorite cartoons of the week night variety. Now, even though I am listening/watching the Flinstones on the Cartoon Channel, I am back writing in my journal for the night. I got into my pajamas while watching 7th Heaven and so I am now ready for bed. I will be going to bed soon but too shortly from now. I do not have to go anywhere tomorrow. Anyway, Emilee has her vet coming for a medical check up and yearly shots. Oh how fun it will be tomorrow afternoon, LOL. Emilee does not care for the shots. Hopefully she will show her calmness she has had for the past several months now. Mmaybe it will not be so bad tomorrow. We shall wait and see. LOL

It is a little after 10 p.m. now and bedtime is a short time away now. I have been spending the past several weeks sleeping on the futon in bed form that I have decided to put the futon back to couch form and sleep in my bedroom flr a change. I hope it works, LOL I have my bed made and it is ready for my body to sleep in it. With my bedroom rearranged somewhat, why not give it a shot tonight.,.YES! I am going to force myself to stay in bed all night long no matter how tempting it is to come out to the livingroom to sleep on the couch/futon. It took me fifteen minutes to get it up and into couch form froom being in bed form for weeks. It is GOING to stay that way. Anyway, I start school Monday, January 13th, 2003, and I am going to get my sleeping pattern back now and very soon!

Now it is the end of my day and my day was not too bad. Not much happened today except for the fact that I left my apartment for a few minutes to write a work order for the maintenance man, clean off my bed in the bedroom to sleep on it tonight and I have turned down my bed for the night. Now with my futon being ini couch form, it is a little bit harder to sleep on it. Now I have my bed to sleep on again, YES!

My day is now over. Good night everyone! God bless!

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7 p.m.

Posted on January 6, 2003 by ksmiley

Not much is going on right now. My plans to stay in my pajamas did not happen after all since I had to leave my apatment to go to the building office to write a work order for my toilet. My toilet did not flow over because it was clogged, but because it runs on and off even when the toilet is not being used. The maintenance man did come and look at it and fix it. It still does its running now and then but not so often…thankfully. I really am now watching 7th Heaven and so I am going to go for now. I am going to go get my pajamas beck on. Later…

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The Day Has Begun

Posted on January 6, 2003 by ksmiley



My day had begun a little shortly before 8 p.m.. Still groggy at that hour, my Emilee Cuddles just would not stop getting my attention about something, LOL I kept closing my eyes and Emilee’s paw kept pawing my shoulder to keep me awake and her meows of needing something was going on in my head at the same time. I figured that I had a real good alarm clock. Good ol’ girl, Emilee Cuddles!

For some odd reason, I feel that my world today is just plain lazy! I am still in my pajamas and I am not in any hurry to get out of them and dressed for my day. Not a thing is happening today. No appointments to go to until Thursday and even Thursday seems so far away but really only three days away and time dooes go by fast when you least expect it. My day has begun, even though lazy is in today, LOL

I have a plan…clean off my bed in the bedroom. The bed has a lot of clothes to put away and my suitcase from my vacation this Christmas holiday needs to find a special place so I can use it for school again this semester.

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Just Talking/The End of The Night…

Posted on January 5, 2003 by ksmiley





I am feeling better now that my day is closing up and bed is not that far away. I still feel a little off but my moods are not so bad now. That is why I am writiing in yellow font…I am beginning to smile. I talked to my Nellie Mom about what was bothering me as well as what I have been praying about as far as two friends are concerned. After talking to Nellie Mom, my world seemed to have a glimmer of hope and now that glimmer of hope is getting bigger and bigger. I feel so much better than I felt since December 30th and 31st. I am not the only one who wants to have any anger inside me. J do feel a little disappointed, though. I am not feeling real tired yet and it is after 10 p.m. here on Sunday night. Last night I had little difficulty getting to sleep and I tossed and turned, watched television, laid in bed and stared at the ceiling with my thoughts on nothing but trying to get to sleep! Tonight looks like ANOTHER ONE of those nights once again. YIKES! Anyway, my day has ended now and I am off until tomorrow. Good night everyone.

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Really Not In the Mood…Oh No!!

Posted on January 5, 2003 by ksmiley



I am not in the mood to have any company today and I am not in the mood to talk to anyone on the phone except for a select few. If any of these friends call, JustAnotherBeth, Nellie Mom, Nellie, Nana Lea, and ALL my family. I will pick up the phone. I am ending my period and so I am a little bit moody and I know my friend mentioned understand.. I hate being moody but that is me. I CAN NOT WAIT UNTIL MONDAY, JAN. 13TH FOR SCHOOL TO RESUME! I do not even care what is on television, either. That is not strange for me but I just want to be left alone for a while today.

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Where Did My Weekend Go!

Posted on January 5, 2003 by ksmiley



Oh my goodness, my weekend is disappearing so fast and it is now Sunday morning before 11 a.m.. We have snow on the ground and it is still snowing from the sky. It is beautiful out there! I love snow enough to see the prettiness and the white fluff make the world white but NOT along with ICE! That’s icky! Anyway, I spent most of my Sabbath/Saturday sleeping after I got home from church. It was potluck at church yesterday but I did not stay because I just did not feel comfortable doing so this weekend. I got my period! I guess part of my weekend was slept off, huh? LOL I would have been on some yeseterday but as the day closed, I did not feel like doing anything on line or on my computer so I did not turn on my computer. I just did not feel like it. Isn’t that a joke? Nope…I surely did not feel like getting on line at all and that is the first time in a while, too. Oh well…life’s a mystery sometimes.

I can not believe that it is January 5, 2003 already! WOW! Cool!

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