Time For Myself Now

Now that Janessa is home safe, I am alone here at home again with my cat Emilee right here nearby or practically on top of me, LOL Now I have time for myself and I have no idea what I am going to do except open my algebbra book and study. I have spme college reading to do, maybe I can do that but it is only going on noon right now. I really do not want to open my school books right now, LOL Too early. SMILE I will get to my studies shortly. Trust me…I never procrastinate on my schoolwork. Anyway, I have a test on Wednesday for Algebra and I am getting prepared for that today through Tuesday evening so I can do well on it. My algebra teacher is very strict on showing work by checking what you did to get the correct answer and we have to show we did it with a check.

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My Night with Janessa

I slept well last night even though i had company all night long. as a matter of fact, both of us went to bed by 11 p.m. and got a decent night’s sleep. we were watching a movie we rented from out Pick N Save store but the movie went over our heads. The movie we watched was the Lord of the Rings, a J.R.R Tolkien story like the The Hobbit. It was, according to the rating, rated PG13 but it surely did not seem such a rating as that! It went over our heads as far as understanding the movie that we did not even finish watching last night and we did not want to watch it again this morning when we were more awake and aware. It had about another hour before it was finally over when we retired for the night. Anyway, I had fallen asleep during the movie and had missed parts of it. I believe that Janessa had fallen asleep during it as well because I remember her waking up and asking me if I wanted to go to bed. I had no idea if I was snoring because she didn’t tell me, LOL I snore pretty good sometimes. LOL

Janessa had gotten here a little before 4 p.m. yesterday afternoon and then we hda decided what we were going to do as far as visiting and eating. We decided to go for a ride for a bit and go for a quick walk, and the go over to her, parents, place to see her Mom and Dad (really stepdad, but this man is the only “Dad” she is going to really know), and then gp for a bite after sundown had finally reached it point. After dinner we went to rent a movie, which was The Lord of the Rings and get some popcorn for a movie snack. Whilel we watched the movie, we did not even understand it, and then went to bed about 11 p.m. and got up by 8 a;.m. and went to have breakfast at Burger King,

That was my time with Janessa last night and this morning. As a matter of fact, she had called about five minutes ago to let me know she had gotten home just fine. Now I have time for myself and it is kind of lonely here agaun.

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With a Friend Tonight

I am home as usual but tonight I have my friend Janessa over for the night. trying to have her over all summer just did not work as planned and now tonight we are spending quality friendship tonight. She is spending the night. We already got together and went for a ride and then after sundown we went for a bite to eat at a nearby restuarant. Now we are watching the newest release, the Lord of the Rings. Good night for now.

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Combining Journals

I thought I would combine my thoughts of school, stories, and Christian entries into one place. I am finding myself unable to keep up with more than one journal, LOL The journal has a title to what I am taking about in each entry so why not. Sometimes I find myself just wanting to ramble and talkk nothing but that is okay, too. When Velvetdazzle fixed up my journal here, I have found that the new look really fit all the journals I have been trying to keep up with outside this one. Why not combine my Christian thoughts and prayers, my stories which are based on experiences anyway, and my days at school as a student in college? The “new” look os just perfect and then I could keep up with each thought and everything will be in one place. At my story journal anyway, I was thinking of changing the outlook of those pages anyway, but I have not had the time or wants to do it because I am tired every evening when I get home from school. Anyway, the “cat” background is not right for it anyway, LOL This background look is just perfect and right, and then everything is in one spot. YEAH.

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Thank You Velvetdazzle

This entry is for the gal who worked on making my diary pages special once again. I needed a change, again, and my friend has taken the time to work on the “look” of my journal again. I just love it as it is a combination of my personality and spiritual nature. The “look” before this “new” look was getting old and it was dark…yet pretty. The hard work is to go to my friend Velvetdazzle who does have a journal here and that is: http://www.vinyl.deardiary.net>Vinyl’s Diary. I love the new look, Velvetdzzle, and you did a great job. Thank you for taking the time to work on it and make it special. It really means a lot to me. Also, I would like to say “it has been fun chatting with you as well, too.” Have a good weekend and we will chat again soon, okay? Thanks again.

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One Last Entry For the Day

it is now 7:35 p.m. and time is definitely going by fast right now. I thought, before it rained some more tonight with possible thunder involved, I would quickly write an entry or two before retiring to bed for the night. Dealing with a slight headache right now, sleep tonight become a little hard to find tonight I do not really know. I am getting tired now and my eyes are becoming droopy but not too tired enough to “not care” about anything. I just had one of those days today I guess where the weather has affected my body somewhat to a noticeable affect.

Remember some time back, in a later entry, I had written something about a neighbor and I having some differences? Well, today this afternoon, our differences have been laid aside and the neighbor seems to be in a good mood now and again. Seeing her, at first, made my heart skip a beat of unesureness but we did speak to each other kindly and lovingly. My noise must not be a problem to her anymore and whatever noise I was making before has been just ordinary living noises you can not help, LOL Maybe I was being a little noisy some days ago by asking her too many times if I was being noisy. Personally, I think that is what really happened, LOL I won’t even ask her anymore if I am noisy and if she has a problem with my noise, she will tell me or the manager and then the manager will tell me herself. SMILE! I am NOT afraid of my neighbor anymore, YEAH!

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It Is Definitely Friday!

The wekend has finally arrived and it is now 7 p.m. and time for me to shut off my television to do other things that ae most exciting and fun on the internet and reading. I always look forward to Fridays and Saturdays because I do not even open up a textbook to study until after sundown on Saturday night. As for now being sundown for Friday night, I am here just enjoying the peace and quiet of my eveniing with no phone calls at the moment. Thankfully it is peaceful for the time being because I have a slight headache that I did treat with asprin free headache killer. I hate those nagging headaches that just lay around for so long. I know now it is going to a “not early to bed night”! Headaches ALWAYS get me a little annoyed. Thank goodness for peace and quiet at the moment. Why do I keep saying those words “peace and quiet”? I HOPE I am NOT coming down with something, I just found out today from my adoptive Mom that our friend G has pneumonia! And G is diabetic and he has enough problems! It never stops for him…NEVER!

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TGIF

I am so glad that it is Friday now. A lot of things happened today even though two of those days I did not go to school. Today was not at all a bad day – just wet and I got soaked to the skin. I got home after taking care of some private business at a bank and credit and then came home and talked to my adoptive Mom Nell. I did not change into any dry clothes but instead I jist took off my wet belongs and got in my pajamas. I am tired anyway and bed will be an wat real soon.

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Wet, Wet, Soaked, and Chilly

This is going to be a short entry and I am hoping that I will have a chance to get on again today to write more. I noticed it was raining before I left for school this morning but I did not “think” that I needed my umbrella because I was getting a ride to school by my neighbor. OOPS! I should have brought it. It was raining very hard when we got to school that actually we were going against the rain when we were driving down the road to school and it was going up the window instead of down. That was cool! What was NOT SO COOL was the fact I did not bring along my umbrella for traveling from car to building. I got soaked! LOL 🙁 Now I am drying off, slowly of course, and I am feeling a little chilled right now. The rain is getting into my bones and I am feeling stiff and achy but no fever or extensive pain. I am, if I get sick, going to be paying the price for not bringing along my umbrella.

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Retarded or Not Retarded

When it comes to mental retardation, so many people do not understand or care. You see, I have a friend who is mentally retarded. I prefer to say mentaly handicapped. It sounds more pleasant and it does not sound so harsh.. She is a sweetie. I wish “other” people would see her that way, a sweetie. She does get on my nerves sometimes but that is something I can easily overlook that. Everyone gets on everyone’s nerves now and then, right? Anyway, Catie, a special person she is, is someone I have learned to love because Catie is Catie. I think that mentally handicapped people have their own wonders in life as intelligence and understanding of things introduced to them. In the onths I have unknon Catie, I have found observant and always questioning this or that about something especially the major things in life. We had the ambulance come the other night because of a tenant having some troubles and in the middle of the night Catie called me asking if I knew why the ambulance was here and what was it here for. I did not know because I did not know and I did not even know it was here until I had heard a familiar vehicle sound. She has never called me in the middle of the night like she did the other night and it disturbed me very much that she called to find out what was going on. She had done something inappropriately and I was not too thrilled. Her phone call could have waited or should not have been made at all. Sometimes Catie’s actions annoy me but she is a sweetie.

I have known Catie for a while now. The way she talks, with emphasis at the end of her words or sentences have gotten used to but it took me a while to get used to the way she talked. Now I do not even notice her emphasis on her words or sentences. I do have to admit, though, she did scare me at one time and I did not want to be near her. Now it is quite the opposite. I want to be her friend and help her understand the “things” of the world. I learned to love her like a mother would her own daughter. As a matter of fact, I love her like a mom does her daughter. She is the daughter I never had. She is a part of my life now, annoyances and all, and she is very special to me. She is mentally handicapped, yes, but she is like everybody else in this world trying to live a normal life in this so-called big world, and I see that it can be very difficult for her at times. People do not understand her. People do not understand special people like Catie who have retardation involved.

What is wrong with some people in regards to mental retardation? I do not see anything wrong with mentally handicapped (retarded) people at all. They are slower in things, yes, but people look at them more than just being slow in these eyes of mine. I am physically challenged with a mild case of cerebral palsy and some people look at me as a “retard” too because I look different. It was several months ago that I was told by my stepfather that people will look at me as a retard because I hang around mentally handicapped people at times. That really made my heart ache and I did cry about it for days after that. I was in a program called UCP (United Cerebral Palsy) Apartment Living Program for ten years uo until March of 1998. My mom took me out of that program for reasons that she thought that I was not at all benefiting from the program and there were small argument about my emotional welfare being in the program. Even though I had not been in the program for four years now, I have made friends with many people who are still in the program and all my friends are challenged either physically or mentally. I believe that mentally challenged people are people too who need to live in this BIG world of ours normally. Define normal please.

What has this world come to? Where is this world going? What is wrong with people?

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