Posted on June 2, 2003 by ksmiley

It has been one of those days where I felt groggy all day long and wanted to sleep but I did not allow sleep to take over my aftern9oon so early like every other afternoon I have spent so far since school ended. I know I have no classes for the summer now but I wish I did but then again I would not be able to travel to see family this summer. I am definitely bored and spending way too much time on my computer on line during the day and late evenings. My Nellie Mom already has her views of computers and her concern of me being on my computer all the time – all day long that is. She is my mom at heart that is foor sure. I have company coming tomorrow at 10 a.m. so I can not really sleep in but I should for the night. I have spent odd hours playing Gin at Yahoo…I am addicted and that is NOT good whatsoever. I was on, playing Gin all day the other day. YIKES!

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Posted on June 1, 2003 by ksmiley

I went to a private party last night and had fun. Some things happened as well but I will not go into detail at this time. I need to get some things organized first before going into detail as right now it is really a bother right now.

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9:35 a.m. Thoughts

Posted on May 30, 2003 by ksmiley

I am off to my appointment shortly and I am eager to find out how my ear is really doing. We are expecting a storm today so I am not sure if I am going to be on my comp later today or not, but I hope to anyway. I better go now and write more later today or tomorrow.

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Posted on May 30, 2003 by ksmiley



It is after midnight here right now – a new day has begun at sunset. I have had a good day today. I am feeling better in regards to the ear infection I have been dealing with these days/ I think it is beginning to clear up and I will see at tomorrow’s doctor’s appointment in ten and a half hours. I have been off and on the computer today, having three breaks to eat dinner and shower but honestly I have been playing gin all day long. This is what happens when I am now not in school studying my heart out to perfection! I wish I took some classes this summer but because the classes run at nightm I could not do that since transportation is difficult to find in my case since I do not drive mysellf. I hope my appontment goes well…I do not want to be put on anymore antibiotics!!! I wonder if I caught someone’s cold virus and it went to my ear! Thanks a lot whoever did it! Well, Emilee is telling it is bed time and so I better go for the night. Sorry I have not been writing but i surely have gotten addicted to playing gin lately, lol. HELP! I can NOT be on line all day. It is no fun. Good night…

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Posted on May 27, 2003 by ksmiley



I do have to admit that I am feeling better as far as the ear infection goes. The Augmentin is doing the trick and I am feeling better in the ear pressure department. I hate being sick. The Augmentin is doing the job with the ear but it is also doing a good number on my bowels as well. I had an accident right in the livingroom on the carpet as I was running to the bathroom. I was embarrassed and scared at the same time. I had gone to Nellie and by that time I was in tears from embarrassment and fear so she came up to my place and looked at the mess, which was pretty much invisible by that time, and sprayed some carpet cleaner whoch took the rest of the mess out as I worked at it. Nellie stayed until I was ok and then left with love in her heart for me and went to bed. As for my ear infection…that is finally disappearing, yeah!

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Dratted Ear Infection!!

Posted on May 26, 2003 by ksmiley



I am so disgueted because the ear infection I had gotten eleven days ago did not get zapped by the the Amoxicillin the ten days I was on it. Now I am not Augmentin as of yesterday afternoon. I hope it clears up the ear infection this time!!!!

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Sabbath is Almost Here

Posted on May 23, 2003 by ksmiley



Sabbath is almost here so I will be signing off here and goinng to my Sabbath/Christian journal in a while. Today was a good day plus quiet and rewarding at the same time. I got together with a neighbor this afternoon after lunch hour and visited with her for a while. I am so glad Sabbath is here even th00ugh I am not going to church tomorrow morning or afternoon since I am dealing with an ear infection still even though it is better than it has been. I took a short nap this afternoon which I think was a big mistake but we shall see. I am planning on sleeping in my bed tonight as I have been sleeping on the couch a lot latelly again. It is Sabbath now! YIKES I HAD FORGOTTEN THAT I WAS WRITING AN ENTRY HERE BECAUSE I HAD TWO FRIENDS DROP BY…

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A Look At My World RIght Now

Posted on May 23, 2003 by ksmiley

I feel a little tired right now but I am up and awake and dressed. I am expecting a package in the mail this afternoon that needs to be signed for. I slept better last night but I did keep getting up to wwatch television in the late hours of tbe morning. Yesterday I was grumpy and my friend KW knew I was not exactly telling the truth. As for the weather, I am not sure if it is going to rain or shine at this time. I wish the weather would make up its mind real soon. Emilee is a little clingy today which is fine. I think that my cleaning lady is coming today but I am not sure since we are questioning the weather right now. As I look at the sky, I do see some blue sky with white clouds but I wonder how long it is going to last, hmmm. I was not sure if and when I was going to be on line or have my computer running. Yesterday afternoon my computer antivirus program found an infected file coming into e-mail and went to the virus vault immediate where I deleted the infected file and now it is gone. I was not worried or anything since I did not open the infected file and in reality I made it so I can not up any attachments anyway. No worries here. Boy, do I ever want to lay down and go to sleep but I won’t waste my day away. I can’t and I won’t. i did not get away from the building yesterday and I do not think I will get away from here today later in the afternoon…yet. I have to wait for my certified letter/package this morning, I am somewhat bored riht now. Booooring! Life is not always fun that’s for sure. A neighbor called on me this morning and we talked for quite a while. Neat lady. I like JL. She’s cool! Anyway, what is with my day today, I am not sure…

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How Can I?

Posted on May 22, 2003 by ksmiley



How Can I?

I have many thoughts still racing through my mind and it is driving me crazy. Now with school out for the semeseter and I passed all my classes with either A’s and B’s, what am I going to do with my days and nights, and time? I can not sit on the computer all day long, sleep all day and night, watch television unitl it is coming out of my ears…that is bad enough. I am almost in tears because no one can help me with my issues that have recently popped up from february to the present. I am not used to getting up every morning and not going to school yet as Monday was my last day of school. In fact, I did not have to attend Oral Communications on Monday. Not sure yet what is about this person who lives in AZ. Having a feeling of unsuriety really bothers my heart. I even called a person witn the same last name in the same part of AZ as the person I am wonering about and the last name is the same but there is no relation so I was more lost hearing that. Then the tenants in the building, the trouble makers I am talking about, really do not have a happy life, sitting outside the building several feet from my window talking and gabbing and talking about the horrors of this place. Horrors? The trouble makers are the horrors of this place which makes this place a horror flick. I do not like horror flicks and here I am living in one, (not smiling). Depresssion has set in once again, yuck!!!

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Thoughts of the Morning

Posted on May 22, 2003 by ksmiley



I have not slept good for the past three nights. So many things are swirling in my head so fast and at once. Not sure why so much seems to be happening all at once at this time and that is okay because life is a mystery all the time. If I have figured the going ons in my life, I will let you know immediately. Today is a beautiful day today. The sun is shining and there is a nice, cool breeze. I do not know if I will be going anywhere today until some time shortly before 11 a.m. this morning when I taok to my friend RH in a while. RIght now it is fairly quiet around here. The feeling that I can not get a hold of a friend in AZ really bothers my heart right now. Is she travelling and had her phone number disconnected while she is away or did something else happen. This nagging anxiety feeling will not leave me alone!! I do not understand why I am having this feeling inside me still even after a few days of trying to contact her.

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