Kristi Karnopp's Diary & Blog

Okay dokey, I am getting real specific here but I am getting hungry. I am boiling some potatoes for supper tonight and I am getting hungry/ I have a little under twenty minutes left before dinner is fully ready. I am listening to Murder, She Wrote on the television while I wait for time to pass. Right now my world is a little bit boring, LOL. I wish I was still at school but I am NEVER at school real late in the day anyway. The latest I am at school is 3 p.m.. School and appointments are just one of the best parts of the week I guess. Even though I have ben home for three hours since school started, I feel like I have been home for hours and houors and more countless hours. I think, LOL, the daylight’s savings time being pulled back an hour here really affected my mind. Even at school, while an instructor was signing me out for the day in the Learning Lab, I was thinking twelve noon when it was one o’clock, and our original time would have been two o’clock if we did not turn the clocks back an hour. Murder, She Wrote has been one for a half an hour so far and I have not really paid attention to it except by ear. I have been on my computer now, on line, for the past 2 hrs and 30 min now reading e-mails and writing replies to the most important ones, and writing entries at Dear Diary here. I did have a while where I left my place to talk to a couple of people but that it is all I have done since I have ben hom. Not really a boring afternoon at home really…even though I have feel bored. What a life i live sometimes! LOL Well, not knowing how much longer I have before dinner really is ready, I think I am going to go for now. Good bye. I wil write more later. I do, however, have 7th Heaven to watch tonight at 7 p.m. tonight. Good bye for now. “YAWN” LOL

Well, with Halloween coming up on 10/31 I thought I’d write a poem

against it. It is commonly known that Halloween is not just a holiday

of

fiction, but the occult today still observes it as a festival of

darkness. Seances and human sacrifice can still be associated with

this

day. The world of spiritualism says that Halloween is the day when the

gateway to the spirit world is the most open. So, on Halloween, we

should not have anything to do with such darkness. We should pray for

the devil to be bound. Actually, at my church I am conducting a prayer

vigil from 8 pm till midnight, on October 31. Anyone near enough to

come is invited to drop in when you can and stay as long as you can.

We’ll be praying for not just spiritual victory, but anyone with a need

is welcome to share it. We’ll also pray about issues of terrorism and

such. The address is 4259 East Snow Rd. Berrien Springs, Michigan.

Those of you too far to come are invited to take time that evening to

pray. This week’s poem I wrote against the observance of this day. It

has a lot of word play, especially on the word, “Boo!”. Instead of

saying “boo” to scare people, we should “boo” the devil in this drama

of

life to show our disapproval. Enjoy.

Boo (27 October 2002)

“Boo!”

Is what is said

On Halloween

When one wishes to scare

Or Confuse

In terrific tumult of frivolous fright.

It brings to the thoughts

Images of ghosts and ghouls

Monsters and madmen

That trouble and terrorize all existence.

And so I must ask

What part should lovers of peace and order

Have with this festival of hollowing chaos?

What place should Heaven’s children of life

Find in demons’ dance of death?

How can the servants of light

Move unequally yoked with darkness

As they play the unholy games of hell?

Should not all God’s people

Amid this drama of good vs evil

Stand up with faith

When Satan rejoices

And boo the devil off the stage?

Oh, come

All soldiers of righteousness

Come to pray

To protest

To proclaim God’s Victory

And frighten the foe with denunciation

As we shout resistance

In Jesus’ Name:

—

“Boo!”

Anyway, the vigil is at the All Nations Seventh-day Adventist

church

in Berrien Springs. Hope to see as many of you who live near enough.

God bless.

Write soon.

Ray McAllister

Okay, call me crazy, and that is okay. I am very dkfferent as far as Halloween goes. I do not care for Halloween. When I was a little girl enjoying the times of getting dressed up in costumes and going door to door saying “trick or treat” and getting candy and all those other things people give out at the time of the year. Now, years later, seeing what Halloween has done to some people, I have also noticed what people do in order to get attention by either poisoning the candy or putting razors in apples and such. Halloween became, as the years grew, not fun anymore/ Today, at age 32, I do not like what kids up as or into in order to go door to door. The world has changed so much since I grew up. Please do not give me such a poor excuse as times change because that will not work for me…NO WAY people. It was about a year ago I had found what Halloween really meant and what it really is, and that is what I find very sad today. I am so glad that I live in an apartment complex where no one, like children, come door to door for candy. I have not given candy out to kids coming to my door since I moved out of my parents home back in 1989 really. I found it a waste of time and a waste of money. I do not fuss over Halloween anymore even though I have friends who do, but only if they knew the just of what Halloween is about and such. A lot of people – not all I know – will change their mind about even celebrating Halloween and decorating their places and yards of such horrible things such as ghosts, jack-o-laterns, black cats, witches on brooms, and orange and black lights. Halloweeen is based on evil and what it is really is Hallow’s Eve. I have a dear friend who calls Halloween Hell Day and boy is she right about that! A lot of people do not see the evil that is such a celebrated holiday. Halloween is no longer an enjoyment in these eyes of mine. Not anymore. Also, I do not believe in all the superstitions that people have drummed up oever the years since earth has been created. My feelings of Halloween has definitekly changed in the past five years really. Some people have the cruelest thougohts on Halloween and those people will do anything to hurt someone else. Halloween is not a fun celebration whatsoever.. The parties, the ‘trick and treating”, and all the candy! Halloween is not at all like Christmas. Halloween is a pagan holiday…like the other holidays celebrated today. I have nothing against the other holidays, believe me…just Halloween is my biggest question of the entire year.

The sun did not shine at all today so my place seemed a little darker tha usual during the day hours of time. Now with the daylight’s savings time in affect, daylight ends about 4:30 p.m. – 5 p.m. noow and so daylight was never really seen as far as sunshine is concerned. To be very honest with you, I had a boring day today. I have been in my pajamas all day long – even after taking my bath, I got back in my pajamas and then went over to my neighbor’s place to check on his cat Floyd while he is gone for the weekend, which is practically over now anyway. School resumes after a two day weekend tomorrow, YEAH! Boredom is soon to disappear, YES! I feel bored even though I took advantage of my lazy day and stayed in my pajamas all day long, took a bath in the early afternoon, took care of my neighbor’s cat yesterday and today, and watched television, and took a little nape in the late morning of the day. How lazy is that? LOL Still I had a boring day, I think. Maybe the sunlight, the lack of it, caused me to feel a little bit down today. NOW I WISH THAT I DID NOT CALL MY FRIEND MARK TO NOT GET TOGOETHER WITH ME TODAY! HOW DUMB THAT WAS! With Mark, I would have gotten out my apartment even for a few minutes. At least I am laughing about it right now and enjoying my television watching of Sister, Sister, and other Disney programs and television shows on other channels. Tonight at 8 p.m., I am going to watch City Confidential on A&E and see what the program is all about. All I know is the fact that there is a story that is similiar to the horror flick about the house in a town called Aminyville (SP?). I am wondering if the horror flick was based on a true stoory after such happened or something happened after the fact that the movie aired the first time. That kind of scares me to find out and yet I want to find out. Do you know what I mean? i am not sure if I know what I mean. Maybe that it is why I had such a boring day to some degree because I have been anticipating the program since last night. I am a little bit anxious I guess. I do know that I am not writing a boring entry now, LOL

My my my..what a lazy day today! It is a lazy day indeed!! Yesterday the sun was out most of the day after 10 a.m., but then today the sun is not even shining! YUCK! Winter is definitely on its way here to Wisconsin. Even more so a YUCK! I do not do well in the cold months of winter or the hot days of summer. What a life I live, huh? LOL I was planning in gettng together with my friend Mark today but I had awakened in the kind of mood to stay home all day in my pajamas once again. Most Sundays I feel so very lazy and out of it and so by evening when bed rolls around, I am so glad that school starts again for another five days of hard work and study and homework, clases, and such. Sundays are not always upbeat! I think that I better go for now. I beed to get cleaned up and a good bath sounds real good right about now. I need to relax a bit. I am a little bit tense today, LOL…what’s new with me. More later…

I do have to admit that I might be boring tonight but who cares.

My day has ended not too long ago and I have been on line for the past 2 hrs and 36 minutes now and it is Saturday night now. It is a little after 10 p.m.. My Grandfather Clock is rght here by me that I keep looking at the time at it says 8:06 right now. I stopped the clock so in the morning I will start it up again when daylight’s savings time officially begins Tonight is daylight’s savings time and we have gauned an hour of sleep…YEAH! Now watch me get up at 5 a.m. in the morning to get ready for school when Monday morning rolls around. I tried to sleep in this morning but onlly a half an hour of sleeping in happened, LOL. I went to church this morning and had a great time. Today was communion services at my church and I am SO GLAD I did not miss another communion Sabbath. I will be back. I am going to put my bed down for the night since it is really bed time. …10:11 p.m.. …I am back now…10:15 p.m. I just got the bed put down for the night and I have taken my medication so bed is soon coming. I just took a sleeping pill. Since my friend Christine passed away, falling asleep naturally has been somewhat limited for some reason. At least I sleep well once I fall asleep anyway.

My day has been quiet and rewarding in a two hour nap. Sleep at 10 p.m. is hard to find tonight, LOL I had a slight headache when I woke up this afternoon from my nap that I had to take two Tylenol to take care of it! I hate those things now and then…those headaches.

Well, tomorrow will soon come. I better go for now. I am about to get sleepy anyway. Good night and thanks for letting me ramblle tonight. I will be back tomorrow bright eyed and bushy tailed HOPEFULLY…LOL Of course I will. Night!

I would like to wish everyone a good weekend – a Friday and Saturday. Good night friends! God bless you all!

Ever since the heat has been turned on for the tenants, I was wondering why I was being roasted out of my own apartment with the heat rising two stories into my place. I was not thinking that it my mechanical error of having the heat on so high. Yesterday I had asked the onsite manager to come int9 my place and feel the horrible heat in my apartment. It was right when I opened the door I could feel the horrible heat hit my body. It was hot! The manager of the building looked at my thermostat and found it all the way to the right at 90 degrees, and here I thought it was turned off, Since yesterday afternoon about 2 p.m., I have had a comfortable apartment. It is actually cooler now and the temperature is at the 60 degree mark after the manager turned it way down and right now the official reading is at 70 degrees. It is comfortable anyway. I will never do that again! That was totally embarrassing, LOL

Yesterday about 4 p.m., I tried to get online to surf when I could not go to any web page on the net. I called my service provider, Ameritech, and found out that DSL was experiencing technical difficulties with their web broweing but we could get to our e-mail. That was all I could do last night! It was boring but I understood that there was a problem at the service provider end of the internet and not mine. I could connect to the internet but could not go from page to page. My end was just fine. I had awakened at 5:45 a.m. curious if the problem was fixed and so the tech support and I got on line to see if it was working yet. It took a few seconds longer than usual to see the Yahoo main page, but it did pop up this morning and I tried a couple of other pages and I was able to get to them. It feels good to be able to surf the web at this time. Well, anyway, I am up and ready for school now and trying to convince myself to go to school even though I do not feel like going today. Now with the weather changing from Fall to winter, I am seeing my moods shift from one to another like one end of the pole to other. YUCK! Having GAD (Generalized Anxiety Disorder) does not ALWAYS HELP. I am going to school no matter how I feel as long as I am not bedridden. Maybe getting out of here will help me out a lot.

Do not panic…I am not leaving here. I love it here enough that I do not want to leave. At least at this time I don’t, anyway. My life as a diarist is fun and exciting and meaninigful. I know I am one of thousands of diarists who love to write. I have been here for over two years now and it will be going on three in 2003, and I love it here very much. I know sometimes I write about boring things as well as exciting things, but that is the way I choose to write sometimes. I find writing my thougohts down on any particular day helps lift a burden off my shoulders when my heart is heavy with something that causes me to feel down and depressed and frightened, Yet I am careful about what I write because sometimes I find that what I write about later comes to haunt me, LOL and the burden is back making my heart heavy with something awful right with it. So far, these past weeks, I have not had anything I have written come back to haunt me in dreams or make my days heavy wuth thought outside of school and life itself. Thank goodness.. I’ve also noticed that I have become one of those people who is coming out of her shell in life and not afraid to write about the most private things such as being a woman. Those periods are horrible sometimes!! Kristi smiles. As for my journal entries being read or commented on, I know that I have comments or no comments and that is fine with me. I know that my life is not totally boring and there is some excitement somewhere. I know that I have been a lazy person in the past, but those lazy days are no more. It is always nice to have a relaxing day now and then when school is not in session – like today. I know that my life does not excite everyone and that is fine with me. I write because I want to write and making my thoughts public is my choice and I am not going to change my decision of making anything private, unless I have to for some reason or another. My life as a diarist is great. I love it here very much at this time.

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